hello again

I believe it’s been about six or seven days since I last blogged. It’s been a pretty good week since then, especially today. I won’t write a thesis of everything that happened today, but let’s just say that any day spent with Belinda is always going to be an awesome day. Mhm. The day in general was extremely pleasant and I’m extremely glad I got to spend today with her. I haven’t had a wonderful day like today in a while, so YAY for picnics, lying on the grass (in various areas), throwing mini orange footballs and spikey things (that have fallen off trees) at each other, getting itchy rashes, hitting each other constantly and having very lovely walks. Sounds good aye? Haha. Believe me, it was.

Before I end this entry. How COOL (I was originally going to say ‘cute’, but then decided not to) is this:

Is that cute, or cute? (Oh, damn, I said cute.) It’s apple pie, by the way. Tastes like McDonalds Apple Pie!

…get it!? CUTIE-PIE! Haha. It took me a while before I figured out that it said “CUTIE”.
Thank you Belinda, I love you! (Oh, if it didn’t quite click, Belinda made them, how creative!!)

I guess the main point of this blog was to just give a little bit of an update and bring some life back into this blog. Ha. Hope all is fine and dandy.

“For every beauty there is an eye somewhere to see it. For every truth there is an ear somewhere to hear it. For every love there is a heart somewhere to receive it.” ~Ivan Panin

Goodbye and take care.

i’m free

…but I miss you so much.

nothing

I’m drained. Physically, mentally and emotionally.
I just want it to be holidays. A break from the usual, from the routine.
I could sleep all day, and not have to worry about the people and things around me.
Not have to worry about myself. I’d just sleep.
Everything running through my head has just become one big blur.
It’ll clear up. Eventually.
Right now, I feel nothing. Absolutely nothing.

No quote today. I’m not in the mood for words of wisdom.

Goodbye and take care.

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Edit: September 18, 2008

Physically drained. Zero thoughts.
I felt like I was going to collapse any second during lunch.
It didn’t help that my head was spinning and I was going around searching for people.
Thank you for keeping me company, even though I was a bit out of it.
Whenever I tried to think of something to say, I had nothing.
Oh, nothing. Thanks for giving me something to write about.

Goodbye and take care.

i like hugs

Would you rather be held or hold someone?

Belinda and I had a mini discussion about this last night. I never really came to a final decision, but the first thing that popped into my head was that I like to be held. I guess it’s a really nice feeling (you know the warm, fuzzy feeling inside?) to have someone hold you tight and you don’t want them to let go, but eventually they have to, even when you try to keep holding on, etc. That’s what I like about a hug, the fact that I want to keep holding on for an insanely long time (or forever, if that’s your type of word). In saying that, I do like to hold people as well. The feeling you get when you’re there for someone and they feel the slightest bit better in your arms, it just warms the heart aye? Ha.

I’ll just end it here, and leave you to ponder about the question. Enjoy looking at the gummy bears as well! Mmm… gummy bears.

“Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead. The consciousness of loving and being loved brings a warmth and richness to life that nothing else can bring.” ~Oscar Wilde

Goodbye and take care.

*Photo credit: please hug me by ~Zendar on deviantART

hello beautiful

Good morning sunshine.
The sun’s on our faces.
With our backs flat on the grass.
You brighten up my day.
Like a star at night.
Your hand is warm in mine.
“Oh, Dakota,
I know our love is new.
I barely know ya,
I’ve fallen over you.
It’s the way you do the things you do,
That make me fall in love with you.
Dakota, are you in love with me too?”
A Rocket To The Moon.
Through our earphones, it travels.
Your eyes are closed, but mine are on you.
All I can see is beauty.
It radiates like no other.
Happiness is the only feeling.
Hello beautiful, I love you.

Goodbye and take care.

twinkle twinkle

Today’s entry is going to be short. Just thought I’d post this picture I saw on deviantART. Looking at this photo brings a smile to my face. The texture and the colours are awesome.

Seeing as there’s references to stars everywhere, the main point of this blog was just to say thanks. The star brightened up my day, but you brightened it up the most.

“Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.” ~Harriet Tubman

Goodbye and take care.

*Photo credit: You’re A Shining Star by ~Prettyscary on deviantART

boo hoo

I had a really interesting conversation with Saf, Emille and Dee on the train ride home today. Though I didn’t speak much, it gave me a chance to just think. I didn’t necessarily think about bad things, but just about certain situations in general. So enough with the babbling, yes? I’ll just ask straight out…

When do you cry? Can a movie bring you to tears? How about at a funeral?

Do you cry when you’re happy? Or sad? Or angry? Or all three maybe.

How often do you cry? Three times a week? Or twice a year?

I guess it’s not that great to think/talk about crying and tears, but I got to thinking about how I used to be such an emotional wreck before things started getting better. Every night, I’d cry into my pillow, and then I’d think about how I would wake up with puffy eyes. It’s been a while since I’ve had a cry (which is definitely a good thing), but it’s been even longer since I’ve cried tears of happiness. I’m hoping now that it’s because crying isn’t my inital reaction to when extremely positive events occur.

Sometimes I miss having a good cry. When I tell people that I like crying, they tend to look at me weirdly. I feel so much better when I can let it out and not have to say a single word.

“Nobody deserves your tears, but whoever deserves them will not make you cry.” ~Gabriel Garcia Marquez

Goodbye and take care.

the fall

Her eyes met no other as the wind swept her hair across her face. Step by step, each foot slowly placed itself on the ground. There was an uncomfortable silence that controlled her surroundings, as if someone had pressed the mute button. She closed her eyes, and let it control her; she let the silence take her in.

The hand that once held her own had weaved its fingers out of hers. The eyes that once looked at her and only her had glanced away. The arms that once embraced her with warmth had let go. The heart that once connected with hers had stopped beating. It stopped beating.

She felt the ground cracking underneath her feet. Any second now, she would fall between the cracks and never have to wonder again. The beating of her heart slowed as she continued to let the world take her. She breathed in slowly , because that’s all she can do.

Her head and her heart fought, they fought a brutal battle. The thoughts and memories that drifted away, the love and strength that weakened. That was her everything, and she let go of it all. The battle was lost. It was lost the day it began.

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In this past week of not feeling much of an emotional low, to suddenly write this, has made me realise that I forget things I shouldn’t. I do it quite often, and unfortunately, it takes these lows for me to get my act together and open my own eyes.

Goodbye and take care.

writer’s block

I’ve been having a bit of a writer’s block these past couple of days. There’s a want to write, but when I have a page open, nothing comes out. Belinda and I have come to the conclusion that I only write when I’m not happy, which is pretty much true. I can’t even write about why I’m happy, it just sounds so weird and awkward. I guess the closest thing to me writing about things that aren’t bothering me are my dedications to people. But those are usually written due to the fact that something has bothered me and I’ve had to let some stuff out. Over the past four or five days, I’ve written so many drafts, but haven’t actually published any of them (well, more like I deleted them all). I really dislike the feeling of not being able to write, and what’s worse is that I haven’t been able to draw lately either. Things just aren’t going my way in terms of expression right now. I need some inspiration, but hopefully that doesn’t result in me not feeling as happy as I am now just so I can get some words out. Things are getting better, and I hope that doesn’t change.

“The hardest thing is to take less when you can get more.” ~Kin Hubbard

Goodbye and take care.